You'd live in a halfway house too.

I’m an idiot. I have to pay rent. I forgot my phone at home. We have another couch surfer coming tonight and I have about zero desire to entertain. I have to go to the stupid doctor tomorrow morning probably to find out I have cervical cancer. Everything is lame and awkward today. I’m drinking skim milk and iced coffee separate and together. 

I watched Religulous the other night and it was snooty but bomb. I hate Catholicism with a vengeance. One of my residents was fucked by his Catholic priest for two years after his dad died, until he graduated, and about 10 years ago (he’s 59 now) men from his school started coming forward who had also been abused. Until that point he thought he was the only one and he suffered from guilt and depression and anger and then a year ago his son dropped dead on the baseball field because of some undiagnosed heart condition. My question: Why are some people given no chance to have a decent life? How can you be okay after something like that? One of my friends has two uncles who were diddled by their catholic priest IN THEIR OWN HOME multiple times while their parents sat downstairs watching TV and thinking about how nice it is that their boys are getting special time to worship God. These poor little boys had no idea that they should've been screaming or even that they were allowed to say no. Now one of them is dead and the other is a self destructing alcoholic. I mean, for fuck sake, celibacy is not human. We are sexual beings; some of us sexual monsters. We all need sex. We need it for reproduction purposes, self esteem purposes, pleasure purposes. Why do you think masturbation exists? I fucking hate sexual deviance. Sex is awesome. It feels amazing and I love experimenting with sex but regardless if you’ve had 100 sexual partners or zero, if someone violates your body you are fucked and please excuse these puns. The most terrifying part of it all is that people still practice and support this religion! The best way to shut people up is to keep them dumb. How do you keep them dumb? Scare them into thinking that if they don’t do A, B, and C, their asses are going to burn for eternity. I was raised Christian, I guess. I went to Sunday school when I was tyke-sized and I loved it because we got to sing, dance, and be crafty. I honestly can’t remember the last time I went to church on my own accord because I never have. Maybe I’m wrong and Jesus is going to come down from the heavens with the locusts and all that shit and in that case I’ll be pissed for having such a curious mind but then again I feel like I’d probably be happier in Hell because that’s where most of my friends will end up and I’m sure that’s where my Dad is. By the way; I’m hungover. I think the most undeniable evidence that God doesn’t exist is that these “holy” priests ruin the lives of young children. What the hell kind of supreme, super powerful, loving God would allow that? Let me guess; it’s the devil’s fault. Well, the whole thing is ludicrous and obnoxious. Why don’t we all start looking out for each other instead of pointing fingers and passing judgement? Cheers.